i think i'm paranoid.....

here i go again. and i think i'm paranoid.
it really sucks since it gives terrible headache,
thoughts coming in, which i think is impossible to happen.
well, not that im saying it final, but then, as of now, i know
its impossible.
it makes me sick and weak.
i know i trust the person, but why am i thinking this nega.
i hate it simply because, a lot suffers.
the mood, the feelings, the bond, and my day!

i don't exactly know why these things happen to me
most of the time.
maybe because i use to deal with "same" issues. (???)
i once told my self, "ok dude, everything's ok! it's an old issue,
nothing to worry about, because there's nothing you can do!"

crap! but why am i paranoid again?!
i can't help it! i always feel down during these times.
i feel i'm a loser...but i know, i'm not. (sana)

it sucks to admit, that it's all about the same old feelings
and person. oh no! im not jealous! (not even defensive, huh!)

grabe, i really hate it. i always start everything, but i'm
always the one to put the flag up. i always give up, and
admit the wrong thing. then, will start all over again.

bakit nga ba?! who the hell invented this feeling?! i really
hate it, i swear!

and it's all because of ME!